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Randall Flagg ([personal profile] hardcase) wrote2020-12-12 03:08 pm
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nadine_he_loves: (tough choices)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-06-23 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
I'm just doing someone a favor.

[There's no protest that she shouldn't speak to him this time. Her hands still shake, but not as much as the first time. She's been here before, she didn't burst into flames or suffer hauntings in the night. Not of the preternatural sort, at least.

And for someone supposedly desperate for company, he's not making much effort to be polite. Nadine stays by the door again, lips a thin line.]


Do you want to eat, or do you want to be condescending?
nadine_he_loves: (started pre vegas)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-06-25 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
You can't really be surprised at how you're being treated.

[It's cruel, Nadine can admit that. But it isn't as though she has any say in it, and she understands why. This isn't some chicken thief or highwayman. It's all as much for caution's sake as punishment's.

And, she supposes, it could still be worse. There were always ways to make it worse, to be crueler. It's a small mercy, but it's a mercy. And they feed him.

She takes a few steps closer, less hesitantly, looking at him as she comes.]


Would you be any kinder, in our place?
nadine_he_loves: (tough choices)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-06-25 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
[A shudder goes through her at that wolfish, monster's grin.]

I do.

[And so she only has so much sympathy for him - but there is some. He's a living thing and Nadine's a kind hearted soul. But she does know what he's capable of, exactly (more or less) why such drastic precautions are put in place.

She'd been close to him before, and nothing too great and terrible had transpired. He'd touched her, but not in any threatening way. Of course it could be argued any touch from him is a threat.]


You might not hurt me, but you want something. And I have a hard time believing it's the milk of human kindness.

[Still, she finds herself approaching. That sick, mad curiosity unfurls itself again, compelling her to come close enough to give him the tray. The danger radiates off of him like a great caged beast but...really, what could he do?]
nadine_he_loves: (tough choices)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-06-25 03:15 pm (UTC)(link)
How long has it been?

[How far removed from humanity is he? Nadine's not sure if it matters, but she wants to know. She looks at that hand, that tremendous clawed hand, thinking of things that lurk in the dark. There is nothing safe about it, nothing reassuring. It's the hand of a creature, not a man.

But despite her suspicions and fear, there is something of a man to him. It's a difficult choice to weigh, whether to offer this kindness and take the risk or not. He could cut her, even chained, if she put her hand in his. He'd already had the chance, though, the last time she fed him. One hand lifts, but curls in on itself cautiously, undecided. She thinks of the old stories, the ones they tell children and claim are true but may or may not be. Tales of beasts who's terror was stopped by a simple kind act...and tales of things that gobble up girls if given the chance.]
nadine_he_loves: (tough choices)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-06-28 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
[It's probably stupid. Stupid and reckless and without point, that she's even entertaining the idea is madness...

But what purpose does this serve? Chaining him, leaving him to rot more or less, with only the barest minimum. What could possibly come of it? The gears continue to turn in Nadine's mind, her face a mask of confliction. It can't be argued that their collective treatment of this man they call The Dark Man is cruel. Whether or not it's deserved...that's something else, and too large and complicated a moral tangle for her to try and work through. But there are smaller arguments to make. Is mercy truly mercy if it's conditional, or contingent on the 'deserving'?

She has been taught that mercy is a virtue. To be a good person, one should demonstrate mercy and forgiveness. Those are both easier said than done, and she knows as well as anyone that few actually live by the morals they preach, but...why shouldn't they? Was it really so difficult to be kind?

Of course there's a risk. It could be that a kind heart and faith in mercy are all that he's playing to, but if there was no risk and no doubt, it wouldn't mean anything. Anyone can be kind when it's easy and costs nothing.

She, Nadine decides, is better than that. If she ends up dead on the floor of this miserable cell, so be it, at least she'll know she tried to do the right thing.]


Alright.

[She says it as much for herself as for him. Taking a deep breath, muscles tense and breath quick as though ready for flight, she puts one small, pale hand in his.]
nadine_he_loves: (pre vegas default)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-06-28 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
[Nothing happens.

There's no sudden pain, no shift in the man bound before her, just his surprisingly normal hand around hers. Aside from it's size, inhuman and unnerving, it feels much like any other hand. There's no hint of claw against her skin, only his palm and broad fingers.]


You're welcome.

[It's eerie, how mundane and normal this really is. Even his grip is startlingly gentle. And so very warm and smooth...she hadn't expected the smoothness. It's not as though she's in the habit of holding men's hands - honestly can't remember the last time she had - but she's always had the impression that their hands were coarse and roughened.]

What...what do you want to be called?
nadine_he_loves: (not so sure)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-07-01 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
Randall?

[It's such an ordinary and unassuming name. The sort any man in the village might have. Nadine doesn't know what she expected, but it wasn't 'Randall'. She's beginning to realize there's a great deal about him that's unexpected. Maybe he was telling the truth, about the fact he was human once.

She can believe it, right now.

Her hand withdraws when he lets go, and she frowns slightly, shaking her head. What's even the point to this? Even if she feels some sympathy or compassion for his plight...]


You know...there's nothing I can do to help you. I don't have any authority here, I'm just the school teacher. There isn't anything more I can do for you.
nadine_he_loves: (tough choices)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-07-02 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
[Why does an affectionate term on his lips make something twist inside of her? And not wholly unpleasantly.

But she shakes her head, ignoring it, pushing it away. She's too old for girlish flights of fancy because a powerful, dangerous man said something sweet to her.]


Rulers who work alongside their people, sure, I'll believe that when I see it. That's how the world works. Nobody becomes the mayor to do work, they do it so they don't have to do any work.

[Nadine has no love for local authority, but it's just part of life she accepts. Like everything else. It's the way things are, and she's in no position to change that.]

But it doesn't matter. I just mean that you can be nice and flatter me all you want, and I can feel badly for you and disagree with treating you this way but it doesn't matter.
nadine_he_loves: (tough choices)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-07-05 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Nadine follows his gaze.

She doesn't believe him. Not entirely. The risks are many and great. If someone hears, investigates...she isn't sure what would happen to her. Bad enough she's talked to him at length, bad enough she let him touch her, loosening his chains would likely end her in a similar position. Or worse.

And she isn't so sure he wouldn't escape. He's bound this way for a reason. What then? She supposes, if she survived, there likely wouldn't be anyone left to punish her anyway. The thought doesn't bother her as much as it should. There's no great love for most of the people here. Only the children, really. The rest don't matter, there's no one she's close to, no one she cares for or who cares for her. There never really has been.

But she does feel for him, locked up in a manner that would be cruel to do even to an animal. Despite all the fearsome stories and all she knows, there's a person in there. An intelligent one.

With a sigh, Nadine looks back to Flagg, indecision clear on her face.]


I don't know. The trouble I could get in... And I'm not entirely convinced you won't break loose and take your revenge on the people who did this to you. Then what would I do? Even if you just...disappeared into the night, they'd know it was because of me. Look at what they're doing to you, what do you think they'd do to me?
nadine_he_loves: (holding back a laugh)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-07-06 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
[Nadine can't help the sudden laugh that bubbles up out of her, but she claps her hand over her mouth to try. She isn't laughing at him, but at the picture he paints with his words. It's...ridiculous.

Appealing, yes, of course it is. Whatever he is, he's powerful and magical and the idea of capturing his attention is darkly thrilling. As is the way his eyes seem to bore into her.

But also ridiculous. Who is she? No one important, no one with anything to offer him. She's boring and mundane and has barely been beyond the edges of this place in her entire thirty eight years.]


Why would you do that? I'm nobody. You don't even know me.

[But she's moving towards the crank as she speaks.]
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[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-07-06 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure if I believe in all of that.

[She casts a look to the door as she reaches the crank, weighing the risk. She's given no alarm, no reason for anyone to investigate. Even if she's taking a while, who's keeping track? As long as she's quiet...]

Sometimes I think life is just...things happening. There's no meaning in it, there's no real guiding force to existence.

[Much as she'd like to believe otherwise, she isn't sure. Good things happen, bad things happen, Nadine has never seen any real evidence there's anything much deeper. Still...she's lived the way they say is the right way, and lived in fear of some divine retribution she's never witnessed in all her years.

The crank turns slowly, as she tries to be as quiet as possible.]


Maybe I'm not really so different. Maybe I'm just tired and bored and willing to risk my skin for a little thrill.
nadine_he_loves: (conflicted)

[personal profile] nadine_he_loves 2021-07-06 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's no preparing for the true size of him.

Bound and bent, it's clear he's large, but it only offers a vague impression. Nadine can't help but shrink back some as he rises, unfolding to a height that shocks her.

She really is being a fool. He could take her in both his hands and break her in two with hardly any effort.]


You're welcome.

[The words come out small and quiet, half swallowed by the thread of primal fear his true height inspires in her.]

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